Cleaning out, picking up...
When I came back to Indonesia, it was 6 days before my brother's wedding, and all my other siblings were already married as well. With my brother moving out, suddenly I was "given" his room...including all the "legacies" that I needed to clean out :))
Since the room became a place for everyone to stop by and somehow leave their stuffs there, I just can't stay in that kind of situation. So a couple of days ago I decided to clean out everything in the room (and I really mean every single thing). I should have taken a picture of it so maybe you can understand why I need to highlight the "everything" part there :)
The funny thing was out of no where, I found a CD, a video, in the middle of a pile of my brother's music collections. On the cover it 's written "Life is full of memories". I played it in my computer and it was a video of my university life, from the day we got there until we graduated...compiled in a very nice movie format.
Even now I'm still wondering how on earth that I ever noticed that there was a video of that (though on second thought, most probably because I didn't come to the graduation day due to an AIESEC conference).
Anyways, what hit me the most was just exactly like the theme of the video, life is full of memories. It suddenly took me back to all flash back of my life until now. How I've been evolving from time to time as a person. Also , what have I contribute to the people around me and the environments... all this just reminded me again and again that life is short...that my life is about being good and useful to others...that time doesn't go back...that time doesn't go back...and that time doesn't go back...and I will eventually die...
Today, 4:30 am already, is my birthday, my 24th birthday....that means since October 30th 2006 my life is now 1 year shorter. I'm still learning (and always will be), still making mistakes, still being grateful, still smiling, still excited, still evolving....but I'm also still me.